Motivation

So I realized the other day that I decided to study abroad without actually acknowledging the purpose behind leaving Fayetteville. In truth, I'm lonely. Not in an "alone" way or a romantic way. This past year has been an extended distraction of schoolwork and social paperwork, going through social motions but never actually moving anywhere. The schoolwork is happy pants usually (through my odd joy in academia), but something elsewhere, elusive (star wars epI...i'm so sorry) is bothering me. Studying abroad won't fill whatever I'm missing or fix whatever isn't right, but I guess I'm ready to just try something different. Nothing changes when one doesn't put forth the effort and resolve to seek change (movement towards truth, whatever that may be).